Jotted Notes and Thoughts 12/6/24
I want to connect with realness. Do I give myself away? That I am distant, desperate, anxious.
Is there a lost uncertainty? To need something more than a vulnerability. Approach, reproach. When one exits the scene, he walks into shadows and dreams. The imagination calling on love to save the night.
Do I recite my closure to a lost love? I have made amends in my life to people I felt I wronged. But I never asked for closure with anyone. If I was to ask for closure, it would be that you knew I felt the most beautiful feelings in my heart when I thought about you. That I never felt feelings that beautiful when I thought about another person. The idea that you know that is my closure.
I felt the need to exit the establishment. My loneliness is such a distance to all the people who surround me. And as I walked across the boardwalk and entered the beach and listened to the waves, I glanced at the moon. I felt such a strong emotional feeling in me. And recognized the magic of capturing beauty and how it continues to guide me through passages of time.